I feel like things are going to derail very soon again

I can feel it in my blood and veins, I can feel it in the exact air I'm breathing right now, everything is telling me; something horrible will happen

I'll probably go out for a few days, and if shit gets down and I don't show any activities for at least 3 weeks, assume I'm either missing or dead

Fuck my life as usual

I cannot wait till' I'm a fucking goner.